Social support

I hate to admit I'm still sick, but it's true. I went for a second opinion from the endocrinologist today. These appointments are scary, they're hard, and they're taxing, particularly when you aren't feeling well and need help the most. Today I had both my boyfriend and my bestfriend there to give me support. I dont know if we are any closer to an answer, but having these two with me made the whole experience more manageable.

Things that are awesome

Another super stellar day that makes me want to rip my hair out and choke someone else with it. So, now, a list of things that are awesome to balance out the horror.

1. Super friends willing to drive getaway cars and alibi my crazy self, who clearly understand this crazy bs life.
2. My partner, who lets me call to rant, rave, shout, and curse.
3. Cat yoga http://www.moderncat.net/2007/11/16/perfect-gift-yoga-loving-cat-owner/
4. Coffee
5. Old-er school hip hop (including Lauryn Hill's Doo Wop (That Thing) and B2K's Bump Bump Bump)
6. New business cards, and new business card holders
7. Hugs from first graders, and the way they really do believe when I tell them things are going to be okay.
8. Safe shoes with colorful dresses.
9. A boss who has my back, and is confident in my skills even when I'm not.
10. Spring is finally coming to New England.

What is awesome to you?

"I believe through any trial there is always a way"

I found myself singing "The Inscription of Hope" this afternoon. We sang this song with Central Middle School's choir in... 1996/97? Written by Z. Randall Stroope, it is attributed in part to a writing found on a basement wall during the second world war, by a Jewish person hiding in Germany. I hope you enjoy it.



Colburn Children's Choir sings an "Inscription of Hope" at their annual Winter Concert in Los Angeles, Ca, December 2008

Continued praise

The appointment on Friday went very well. We're testing more things (including my thyroid and cortisol levels), and hopefully we'll find some answers. I am so thankful for wonderful doctors, access to comprehensive medical care, and all the wonderful people who support me.

165. Talking about it

This photos is from the Boston Globe via Reuters. Found here.

By no means am I thankful for AIDS/HIV. I am thankful that we can start these discussions, talk about prevention, support and treatment.

I am thankful that I can hope, someday, December 1st will only be the day Rosa Parks was arrested for not giving up her bus seat.

64. Opportunity

These stairs, found in the Smithsonian Museum of American Art and Portraiture, were just so beautiful I couldn't help but think of all the opportunities to which they could lead.